Forcing yourself to do things differently

I had a great weekend in Paris yet on Friday when preparing for it, I found myself in a situation where I had to trust. That can be very difficult taking a plunge, not knowing what to exepect. I headed off to another country, not even knowing if my accomodation was booked or not (I had just emailed the place) and arriving early evening is never too attractive. I did learn that I can just trust that things will work out ok and that they will!
It is also a challenge to appreciate the fact that I don't have work and to adjust to being able to do whatever I want, whenever i want. It is exactly where you want to be when you are working - what I dreamt of being able to do, yet part of me just wants a job and that security, and a place to live. We want the excitement of uncertainty, yet then seek security as soon as we have it! So I need to continue to almost force myself to do things differently.